That depends, but I'm guessing you saw It, as well. Sorry, kid...my life was fucked up before this place. What did you see? You okay? I know it's a lot.
How am I so normal? Who the fuck said I was normal?
That fucking clown could shapeshift into anything that you were afraid of...and it fucking fed on fear. Did you see me die, too, then? If so, I'm sorry about that, too.
I'm not normal, man, I've just been through years of therapy. And, believe it or not, there were 27 years of memories just straight up wiped out of my brain that I didn't remember until I went back to that hellhole.
Yeah, let's just hope Chrissy didn't see it, because that's the last fucking thing she needs.
Well, you're pretty well adjusted for that level of horrific shit. I meant it as a compliment, not to knock what you've been through. I just, would never have guessed you went through that.
Fuck. Guess it was asking to much that we be left the fuck alone.
Any chance thousands of dollars of weed will do the same trick?
I really don't know how kids deal with this shit. How anyone does. At least I was almost twenty before I found out this shit was real. Not that it helped any.
Your guess is as good as mine. I've never tried it. Doubtful, but hey...you never know. Deal with your shit however you need to deal with it, Eddie. It's all you can do.
I don't really think there's a good time to learn this shit is real. And, you know, 20 is still a kid. Legally, maybe not, but psychologically, we don't mature until we're 25. So don't think you should've, somehow, been more prepared to deal with it than a younger kid would be just cause you're an older one.
If I had things my way, none of us would've had to deal with it, but it is what it is, whether we like it or not.
Well, if you ever do want to give it a try, I can help you out with it. No kidding, it can do wonders on helping you to let go for a little while and hug your sanity close.
What if my way of dealing with it is not dealing with it?
Yeah, well, I know a bunch of kids back home that are dealing with it a lot better than I did/am. I really hope they get what they need and end up like you. I know you're probably not okay after all of that, but I've seen the way you are with Chrissy. You're one of the good ones, Eddie. Even if you have every right to not be.
I can't, I have asthma. I HAD asthma. I...anyway, thank you, but I think I'm gonna pass.
That's valid too. Not forever, but for now. For a while. And when you're ready to deal with it, there are a handful of professionals around here that can help. That work with Supers. They might not get it as far as the shit we've experienced, but they make good sounding boards you don't have to worry about freaking out.
Yeah, well, I have it on good authority that no two people are the same, Eds. It is what it is. You haven't had time to be desensitized to it. Maybe they'd been dealing with it longer and they felt like this when they first started, I don't know, but what I do know is that you're beating yourself up over nothing.
I'm good with Chrissy for the same reason I'm good with Olivia and the twins. I always wanted kids and I couldn't have them. So I just...project that onto the children around me, evidently.
Like a shrink? I don't know about that. I mean, it's going to sound pretty fucking insane to anyone that hasn't seen it firsthand. Plus, it wasn't as if I was doing spectacular before all this shit. I was just dealing with it a lot better you know with pot, D&D and music.
I should really pick up D&D again.
You're good with her because you care about her. You could've treated her like a teenage roommate, but instead you treat her like family. She needs that.
No, she deserves that. So thanks for giving her what she deserves.
Yeah, they call 'em therapists now, but yeah. Like a shrink. Trust me, they've heard plenty of insane shit from other Supers, but they don't have to get it, they just have to "hold space" or whatever the fuck, for you. Just be there as a sounding board while you process it out loud. That helped me a lot.
Ahhh, a D&D guy. I always wanted to learn how to play that, but my friends were more into the outdoors, so we mostly stuck to comic books if we were going to do anything other than building dams in the Barrens. Or, you know, trying not to get our asses kicked by Henry Bowers and his gang of assholes or being eaten by a kid-killing clown from outer space.
Yeah, I care about her a lot. She's a good kid who got dealt a shitty hand, kind of like I was. Chrissy and I have a lot of fucked up things in common, actually. I treat her like family because, by now, she feels like it.
But you know what else she deserves? A guy who loves her for her and not for the fact that she looks good on his arm and, from what I've heard, that's what I gather Jason was like. So thanks for giving her the other half of what she deserves. We make a good team, Eddie-squared to the rescue.
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Is that one of your memories, man?
Jesus H. Christ. How are you so normal?
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How am I so normal? Who the fuck said I was normal?
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I did. How the hell have you held it together after all that?
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I'm not normal, man, I've just been through years of therapy. And, believe it or not, there were 27 years of memories just straight up wiped out of my brain that I didn't remember until I went back to that hellhole.
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Well, you're pretty well adjusted for that level of horrific shit. I meant it as a compliment, not to knock what you've been through. I just, would never have guessed you went through that.
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Thanks to thousands of dollars of intense EMDR therapy. I didn't do it by myself, that's for damn sure.
Stan was there, too, you know. When we were kids, anyway.
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Any chance thousands of dollars of weed will do the same trick?
I really don't know how kids deal with this shit. How anyone does. At least I was almost twenty before I found out this shit was real. Not that it helped any.
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Your guess is as good as mine. I've never tried it. Doubtful, but hey...you never know. Deal with your shit however you need to deal with it, Eddie. It's all you can do.
I don't really think there's a good time to learn this shit is real. And, you know, 20 is still a kid. Legally, maybe not, but psychologically, we don't mature until we're 25. So don't think you should've, somehow, been more prepared to deal with it than a younger kid would be just cause you're an older one.
If I had things my way, none of us would've had to deal with it, but it is what it is, whether we like it or not.
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What if my way of dealing with it is not dealing with it?
Yeah, well, I know a bunch of kids back home that are dealing with it a lot better than I did/am. I really hope they get what they need and end up like you. I know you're probably not okay after all of that, but I've seen the way you are with Chrissy. You're one of the good ones, Eddie. Even if you have every right to not be.
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That's valid too. Not forever, but for now. For a while. And when you're ready to deal with it, there are a handful of professionals around here that can help. That work with Supers. They might not get it as far as the shit we've experienced, but they make good sounding boards you don't have to worry about freaking out.
Yeah, well, I have it on good authority that no two people are the same, Eds. It is what it is. You haven't had time to be desensitized to it. Maybe they'd been dealing with it longer and they felt like this when they first started, I don't know, but what I do know is that you're beating yourself up over nothing.
I'm good with Chrissy for the same reason I'm good with Olivia and the twins. I always wanted kids and I couldn't have them. So I just...project that onto the children around me, evidently.
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I mean, it's going to sound pretty fucking insane to anyone that hasn't seen it firsthand. Plus, it wasn't as if I was doing spectacular before all this shit.
I was just dealing with it a lot better you know with pot, D&D and music.
I should really pick up D&D again.
You're good with her because you care about her. You could've treated her like a teenage roommate, but instead you treat her like family. She needs that.
No, she deserves that. So thanks for giving her what she deserves.
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Ahhh, a D&D guy. I always wanted to learn how to play that, but my friends were more into the outdoors, so we mostly stuck to comic books if we were going to do anything other than building dams in the Barrens. Or, you know, trying not to get our asses kicked by Henry Bowers and his gang of assholes or being eaten by a kid-killing clown from outer space.
Yeah, I care about her a lot. She's a good kid who got dealt a shitty hand, kind of like I was. Chrissy and I have a lot of fucked up things in common, actually. I treat her like family because, by now, she feels like it.
But you know what else she deserves? A guy who loves her for her and not for the fact that she looks good on his arm and, from what I've heard, that's what I gather Jason was like. So thanks for giving her the other half of what she deserves. We make a good team, Eddie-squared to the rescue.